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Tuesday, February 9th, 2010
7:25 am	Drama with the best friend again, maybe...maybe not, I don't know...argh! We went from having good times to, to her tolerating me, to her saying it was just weird... I am sure we have cycled through that a couple of times. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 8th, 2010
2:49 pm	I can hear again. It's a miracle. Upset with ...I don't know. Life is so random with being crappy...one second it is fine, and the next, I think "ugh"...and then it goes back to being fine. Happily optimistic one second...and then whatever optimistic options I think are out there, aren't...and then I feel like I am deluding myself. (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 6th, 2010
11:47 am	Um...live journal is becomming sparsely populated apparently. I commented the other day on a LJ friend who got a split in a pair of jeans, I suggested duct tape...and then they disappear... Live Journal is getting lonely. In other news, my left ear is ringing...I can't hear out of it, and...ugh, this sucks. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 2nd, 2010
1:30 pm	I was checking out that new "stats" about who visits the page...so if you check me out from the friends page, it won't log as a stat, and I have no random visits otherwise... So I am writing to an audience of....just me?! In that case... I've gotten fat. In case no one noticed. Amy is working out like crazy, and going to be working on getting slender... and all I can ask myself is...why? Yeah, she'll get to be healthier... I used to be the fitness nut. I ran, exercised, etc... When I moved down here, we were always together, always busy...and working out just didn't fit into that schedule. She demanded enough time that I didn't really have a chance to hit the books properly. So I blissfully ate myself to this size... I go through phases where I work out, and I can lose the weight...but then I neglect the habit, and all the hard work to slim down caves in to the pressure of the delicious ho-ho. I figure if I had a reason to maintain my appearance...but I really don't...it isn't like I have to go to the bars and find a date. There are certain things that I hate doing with Amy...firstly, she drives me nuts (usually) when we go shop...so I avoid this at all costs. Secondly, she drives me nuts when she gets into this "let's clean the house mode"...and Thirdly, I can't stand working out with her at all. This is not, nor will it ever be, an "us" activity... I need to find a gym buddy, or perhaps just someone to do activities with...I have a couple friends that would be suitable for that...but they don't live in town, so that's not practical. And I need motivation...I sometimes hint to Amy about things she could do that might motivate me in general...but she ignores that completely, only to turn around and say "I'm supportive of whatever you do"... Blah... so, I thought about exercising today, but I cleaned around the house a little bit instead. Maybe tomorrow. (Comment on this)
Friday, January 29th, 2010
10:37 am	Ugh...she kills me piece by piece. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 27th, 2010
12:43 am	I enjoy catching up with old friends. Whether they just finished bowling at a bowling alley in Yakima Washington, or whether they are suffering from insomnia and sitting around the house watching it snow in the middle of the night.... It is so nice to catch up with everyone. I think the older I get, the more I realize I should have invested in myself, in the people around me, and gotten to spend more time with everyone while I could have... I stay up late...because I don't want to bother the wife, and I can't sleep well at this time... It is a combination of things. The work schedule bounced me around so much, I don't know which way is Sunshine and which way is Bedtime. I didn't help my best friend move this last time, and I guess I was useful to have around when I could be useful...this was a person that "mostly got me"...pretty close to a best friend as I could have...and then suddenly, I am not exactly a person she wants to have be a friend...which she has tons of people around her now, active social schedule... This was how it was in college. She would get busy with friends...and then when everyone moved or ditched her...there was me. Busy with work, various local involvements...busy busy busy...and I come home, and seem so alone at times. Sure, I go out, socialize...which is fun...but then sometimes I just feel alone. Horrible feeling. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 19th, 2010
1:08 am	Do you ever have those moments in your life where the clock stops ticking, and you think to yourself about that one moment, that one thing, that you could have done differently that would have changed the world? Perhaps I am just feeling this way because I'm listening to "walk on water" by basshunter... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 5th, 2010
1:20 pm	What the heck...is it 2010 already? Where did 2009 go? Major case of the rip van winkle... (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 5th, 2009
2:40 pm	Youtube I am tired of the "advertisements" on Youtube before your video starts... I understand they need to make their money, but a 15 second ad...that I have seen a hundred times already. I am still not going to get an American Express card...sorry. And it goes every few videos...but recently, it seems like it plays an ad before every video...kangaroo, mate. I like certain music...own a couple cd's (back when cd's were new technology)...and someday I will probably leap to the next technology, once it is old and antiquated. But, I enjoy actually seeing the videos that go along with the songs...because once upon a time, MTV actually played music videos (at reasonable hours). I wish the ads were much more brief..."this youtube video brought to you by (advertiser)"... "this youtube video brought to you by...mentos, the freshmaker..." Seriously, 3 to 5 seconds, and then boom...into the video. Not this 15 to 16 second crap. (Comment on this)
Monday, November 30th, 2009
6:09 pm	Fantasy Football You think I would be doing better than 4th place...I had all the right players. I even managed to make a few trades... How often do you negotiate a trade that upgrades both teams involved? I upgraded at QB (I got Schaub), and I had to give a RB Johnson from the Titans. Yeah, he is having a monster year at running back...but I was plenty loaded on the bench at the time...so much so, that I traded away another running back in a second trade, which I landed TE Clark. The yahoo "cant cut" list is 32 players long...of which, I currently have 7. I have some issues with the "cant cut" list in general. Seriously, M. Lynch was on the list for how many weeks?! You know how many leagues I had to cut GOOD players to make space, when I seriously wanted to get rid of Lynch. I am in several leagues, so I have a couple examples... but, then you see that Schaub isn't even on the list. Hello...we are fast approaching the end of the season, and he still is statistically ahead of how many other quarterbacks that are "big names"... Seriously, stop basing the "cant cut" list off of how many sneakers a player can get people to buy! This is why I prefer leagues that don't use the "cant cut" list... (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 29th, 2009
2:34 pm	Tiger Woods and then babbling about Husker football Tiger Woods got into an injury accident. There is a lot of speculation about this and that...but I don't care about that. What I care about is that the police have to investigate injury accidents, which includes obtaining statements from those involved. I understand a person might have been injured and unable to be interviewed immediately, or they may want consult legal counsel before making statements. And the police were rescheduled through the lawyer, which is fine. However, the media reported that Woods has cancelled the latest meeting and not rescheduled. HELLO!!! That is not optional. Not that I care too much about the details, other than the fact that I am glad he is ok and recovering. But I do care about people not letting the police do their job. Now...on to a run down on the Husker season... We had a good season. We are 9-3. We had a close loss (15 to 16) to a good Virginia Tech (9-3). We were ahead in the final minute of that game, and I really wish we could have pulled that one out. We got beat soundly by a good Texas Tech (8-4). We had a weird fluke loss (7 to 9) to Iowa State (6-6). We had 8 turnovers. We probably should have scored about four more touchdowns that game, but we kept fumbling right at the goalline. Our defense was incrediable this year. Texas Tech put up 31 points. Colorado put up 20 points in the last game of the season (one meaningless touchdown came on a last second hail mary). All the other opponents were held to 17 or less. We had one shutout. We held three opponents to 3 points. We held six opponents under 10 points. We rank third nationally in scoring defense, allowing 11.08 points per game. Suh and Crick were dominant on the defensive line, and Suh is getting some attention in the Heisman balloting (although, I think he might come in fourth in the voting...we'll see). We are ranked #21. (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 8th, 2009
5:44 pm	Poor poor Geisy Arruda. I saw the video of her being escorted out, and watched a couple of the broadcasts...and that dress was not that short. Of course...this happened on October 22...and it finally makes news up here? Slow news day today? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 4th, 2009
12:57 pm	I purchased a heat pump some time back...and, I just love paying the "lower" rate for electricity. The lower rate is like 25% less. I am still keeping tabs of the energy savings, because some winters are colder than others, and some summers are hotter than others... However, the gas bill has not been outrageously high during the winter months. (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 1st, 2009
1:45 am	I had a job that I applied for recently. I am well qualified for the position I was going to follow-up with a phone call, just to check on the application status...and before doing that, I checked my email. Yup...a rejection e-mail. I have not seen a rejection letter of any sort say "thank you" as often... It was the standard, "we had many strong applicants", "you have a great resume", "you are so cool...but sorry"... I did not expect to GET the job...but I expected that I would at least land an interview. (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 24th, 2009
5:20 pm	This happened not last night, but the night before... I went to Hy-Vee, and I got flirted with. Seriously...I was buying paper plates, and this gal that was shopping struck up a conversation with me, and went down the aisle, came back to talk more, walked away...and came back again. And I wasn't aware that I was being flirted with...at least not at the time. I should have gotten a number, so I would have had proof. Then yesterday, I was at the vet...and this gal was flirting with me, said our dogs seem to 'like' each other...maybe a play date? Well...even though I'm too stupid to realize when I'm getting flirted with, at least I got an ego boost out of the deal. (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 11th, 2009
10:05 pm	The wife was gone over the weekend. So when she got back home...I feel alone? How does that work? I have been keeping busy, going through random boxes...tossing out whatever junk needs to be tossed out. I swear it has multiplied. Of course, there were some really interesting little items that I have found...photos from events that I barely remember... Sometimes I wonder why I held onto certain things. I think I know why I am feeling down about it... I find these scraps of paper which represent a fun time in my life...and those scraps of paper have gone on and are out somewhere else in the world. When I graduated from college, all my friends took off in different directions. I always wanted to bring the band back together. (Comment on this)
Friday, October 9th, 2009
11:59 pm	For whatever reason...I am disoriented. What is today? I blame the new schedule at work. I have a little time off now... and I have a few "to do" things...I think I might just zone out for the next couple days though. And "online"...has remained weird, or frustrating... Current Music: Blümchen: Blaue Augen (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 7th, 2009
10:10 pm	Apparently I have the STRESS... Every affliction that comes my way...seems to be caused or made worse by the STRESS... I stay so even and level on the outside...but underneath, it just bubbles... I completely and totally dismiss from my consciousness, any and all disturbing thoughts...effectively isolating my brain from the world. I feel more awake when I am asleep, and I feel more asleep than when I am awake. Dreams are pleasing, and being awake is not bad...because I have dismissed all that is bad from my consciousness... I sometimes distract my mind with other things to think about...look brain, there is something shiny over there. And then I sometimes focus my energy on something more productive...like cleaning out some of these darn boxes, sudoku (is that productive?), and um...tons of things. So maybe all the distractions aren't necessarily bad...I do a lot of writing and researching. Of all the things I avoid...I think I am only really avoiding thinking about three things. 1 MONEY 2 WIFE I am not sure if that is because she spends money. Heck, there are other things that are stressing me out...or that I'm avoiding thinking about. Like the months of JUNE and JULY... (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 1st, 2009
1:50 pm	I can't even begin to explain how creative the work schedule has gotten for me... Current Music: Primus: Jerry Was A Race Car Driver (Comment on this)
Friday, September 25th, 2009
8:51 pm	I was reading someone else's journal...they had a comment about going out with the girls, and talking about number of partners... And this gal said something about having been with about "40"...but only 10 since she's been married. You know, I still find humor in that. I could provide a social commentary, but my mind is moving like sludge at the moment. You know, the slow moving sludge, as opposed to the fast moving sludge. Well, the same stuff is stressing me out, and now I got new stuff stressing me out. Just when I didn't think my heart could feel any heavier... (Comment on this)